My outbreak is partially fixed, at least able to maintain.
My depression, controllable.
Though, hatred has gone up another level.
Death wish faded, need to stay alive to make bitches continue hating their lives.
Happy meter went up by 1.
Motivation rise by 1.
Smiles has return to my pathetic face.

It’s been almost a month. I’ve stuck to my healthy diet plan (exercise plan not so). I just don’t eat rice but have everything as usual, more fruits and less oil. And I’m proud to say I’ve loss more than 5kg within this month. 79.9 > 74.5. Scary numbers I know. 4years of feeding destruction and that’s what you get. I’m determine to get back to what I was 4years ago and keep it that way. Giving myself 6months to shed 20 miserable kg’s and I’ll be a happy bunny.

Found something I wanna do & hopefully it’ll work out.

Gonna visit Melbourne soon again, hopefully!
Melbourne = My happy land = My Happy Pills = Super happy me.

Need to blog more often, cause this is the only way I can block out unwanted thoughts.

Monster stared at me when I was going out. Half way to Bishan I realized, I’ve forgotten her Saturday walks. So I rushed back quickly to take her for her dumb walk. Where got owner so nice one? She better appreciate me more and not be so petty all the time. Stupid dog with such horrible temper and mood swings. Always growl at me for no good reason. I’m such a good mummy to you yet you always behave so demonically towards me! ARGH.

See that demonic face, saw cat again wanna play with it. -.-

Incase the cat decides to attack my furball, put her on top to let her stare happily.

See the 2 shiny dots? that’s the cat’s eyes. Stupid flash.

Without flash.

I love cats! Even my dog is a mutated dog that behaves like a cat. So I couldn’t resist playing with the cat. Correction! more like the cat couldn’t resist coming to me. Hoho.

Boyfriend scold me cause the kitty didn’t like flash ):

Sorry kitty ): I take you with no flash ok! (:

Why so pretty one?!

My monster started to get jealous, cause we were ignoring her. No idea what she sniffing always sniffing. Look away see her sniffing. Forget to follow me sometimes cause busy sniffing. Seriously why do dogs like to sniff so much?

Anyway we decided to bring her to play ground! And this are the rare occasions you see the Boyfriend and the dog getting along happily.

But it didn’t take Mister K long to realize he wanna torture my monster again. -.-

Think what? she’s some kinda toy car? -.-

But you know what? That monster loves the slide. See her happy face? This is what I call Epic Moments.

Can’t stop laughing at her face!

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This are the epic moments I love. When my monster and boyfriend can happily get along! Why can’t everyday be like this? Why must be enemies? Why must bark at the guy? Why must annoy the monster? Man… you both are just freaking childish. End of story. T-T

See?! You only get to see this moments during monster’s walks.

But this one is not new. Every possible chance K gets. He’ll snooze away. I give up on him. Pay more attention to my monster better.

Picture with my monster! (:

I ♥ You monster, even though you always growl at me and steal my toys. You little impossible creature.

I can never be angry with monster for long… How to get angry with this face?

You spoiled little monster. Everytime I see your face, it’s a reminder for me to never have kids. Can’t even handle a dog, I think my son/daughter will be stepping all over me like dirt. Step, rub and kick. Sad life. T-T

Play until tired, must have a good rest on K’s tummy! K’s exhausted having to run after the monster too. Haha.

See his eye lashes? Know why I jealous now? That boy’s eyelashes are freaking long, why so unfair one?! ):

Last 2 pictures of Mister K being a monkey.

Hoho. Serves you right.

xoxo. (:

It’s not that I like or am okay with being fat. It’s about each time I think about it, I feel hungry. Sucks to be me. Hohoho.

Okay, seriously, I need somewhere to complain about my unhappy fatty life. Yaya, just shut it with the go exercise shit and the eat less nonsense. I would like to complain about my ridiculous lifestyle and maybe after saying all this, my inner self will wake up and understand that this monster lifestyle is not working out.

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Past: I could take straight angle photos without needing to use my hair to cover my face and my face don’t look like it’s gonna explode. (Stop hogging on my simi-flat nose. I like my stupid pig nose. SO WHAT IF I’M IN SELF DENIAL)= Happy times.

Present: Camwhoring has become a difficult task to complete. Straight angle? Don’t even think about it. Putting on more makeup to hide or camouflage only makes things worse. = SAD LIFE.

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Past: Online shopping = happy times, I see I buy I wear I can I like. (:

Present: Online Shopping = SAD LIFE, I see, I buy, I can’t wear, I waste money, I HATE. ):

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Can’t wear anything in my wardrobe anymore. And I cant wear more than 2 layers. My bra being the first layer. I don’t wear my stockings anymore, not that I don’t like them, it’s because I can’t wear them anymore. It doesn’t stretch enough.

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Friend’s classic jaw drop on first sight of seeing me. Wrapping it up with: WTF Happen to you? ARE YOU PREGNANT?
That’s just great. SAD LIFE. I have feelings too you know! BITCH! T-T

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Mum sees old picture of me on facebook goes,
Mum: Who’s that pretty girl?
Me: Mother.. THAT’S ME.
Mum: REALLY?!… *slowly looks away to avoid unhappy me*

I could go on and on, but this is way too depressing now.

On a happier note, at least I can eat anything I want and don’t feel that sinful, too fat to care. I can happily enjoy all the delicacies with Boyfriend K, without aftermath complains.

Come to think bout it, alone just being able to eat anything in the world with Boyfriend K is just too blissful already. Oh my, just thinking of his smiley face while eating just makes everything worthwhile. I’m smiling already. In fact, I should really lose weight just for Boyfriend K. Increase my living years to irritate him with a healthy body. He would be a twice as happy smiley face boy if I don’t die of a heart attack due to being too fat. Yap! I shall do it! Kk. Happy now.

New motto: Healthy life = More food. (healthy life equals more years ahead to try more food.)

I think this post just became pointless.